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[blueshit]

you assume bc youre an ASS

ever assume maybe its none of your fucking business

what about that GENIUS

[unorthodoc]

Maybe I want to help.

[blueshit]

ha ha

fuckin hialrious

[unorthodoc]

Yeah, I'm a real jokester when it comes to people I feel responsible for.

Look, this is more than most people ever get. You should be grateful I care at all.

[blueshit]

how high off youre own farts are you

lemme just fall over in grattitde that you CARE so much you wanna tell me waht to do with my life

you aint fuckin responsilbe for me

cw: addiction talk

[unorthodoc]

Let me put it this way: I could have switched out the vials for medical grade doses of laxatives a month ago. I didn't. Though believe me, I considered it. That's how much more control I have over this situation than you do.

We're part of a fraternal club. Brothers in track-marked arms. As long as you're here, I'm going to feel responsible for you. I don't want to see you hit rock bottom, and not only because I'd be the one cleaning up the mess.

[blueshit]

fuck you

[ If a text can be apathetic, though, this one is. ]

it desnt fucking matter

[unorthodoc]

If it didn't matter, you wouldn't care so much about it, and you wouldn't need to throw yourself off the wagon. So something does matter to you.

[blueshit]

yeah and its fucking gone

i cant have it

i fucked it up

so who fuckin caresw

[unorthodoc]

Them's quittin' words, Jesse.

[blueshit]

then i quit

ok

is that what u wanna hear

fuck

[unorthodoc]

Jesus, why are you making this so difficult?

[ Ugh. Okay. He can do this. ]

I'm worried about you.

[blueshit]

[ Shit. That hurts, and it shouldn't. An ache, right in his chest. ]

i fuck everything up

hes better off withtout me

[unorthodoc]

Did he actually tell you that?

[blueshit]

he didnt need to

everybody dies
everybody dies cause of me

[unorthodoc]

No, they die because they've spent too long drinking and not taking care of their arteries. Or because they get cancer. Or because an artery goes nuts and ruptures in the back of their brain. Or because they get hit by a car, or get shot, or a hundred other ways people can depart this mortal plane.

You just want it to be because of you so you have a reason to blame yourself for something you probably didn't do.

It's okay, I do the same thing.

[blueshit]

no
they get shot cause of me
they oded cause of me


i killed lottie

[unorthodoc]

[ Of all the possible responses to get, he hadn't anticipated that one, and replies before he can marshal his thoughts back from it: ]

What? When?

[ Now he's trying to figure out when he'd last seen Lottie, where she might be. ]

[blueshit]

in la

they kileld her to stp me

she died cause of me

[unorthodoc]

[ Wait. Lottie would have mentioned being dead at home, which means -- ]

It happened in the Void.

[ Oh, Jesse. ]

[blueshit]

[ In the Void, in reality. What's the difference? It hurts either way. ]

it always happens

they always die

it cant happen to him too

[unorthodoc]

Come on. Big D can take care of himself. He's survived the end of the world.

[blueshit]

i dont wanna hurt him

i dont wanna hurt anybodu

[unorthodoc]

You think he'd be happy if you hurt yourself?

[blueshit]

im not
im fine

[ Sure, Jan. ]